Thursday, May 24, 2007
hMmmm... wat exactly is love? I guess diff ppl have got diff point of view i supposed? Did had 2 relationships b4, a long n a short one, 4yrs n 4mths. Such a big diff~ haa. Each of them has its own precious memories, unhappy moments n all. Cant expect a relation to be always so smooth sailing ya? If not next time, when there's a small attack, one wont be able to handle it. haha. n breaking up is such a pain, which hurts alot, its not jus ur heartache n its also mentally breakin down. World seems black~ u'll feel lost n u dunno wat u're doin. Once hurt, it takes a v long time to heal. Ppl always say time will heal the wounds n also time will tell u e answer. Hmmm..i think somehow correct ba~
One thing i'm happy abt it is tht.. i still can be v gd fren with one of them. Though seldom contact, I still can tok all sort of nonsense to him, when unhappy still can call n chat with him. One who know me pretty well.=) Now, he has got a gf.. do feel hapPy for him..=) Hopefully they will cherish each other.. thick n thin will pull thru tog.
For the other one, do feel disappointed with him, makin me so pissed tht time.. After we're not tog, we're still on v gd terms.. n suddenly cos of a job thingy, ended up always quarrel n not jus only me, his family too. Jus kinda brain washed by e ppl there. Been tryin to tok him rd, at last give up.. jus do watever he wanted to.. n now he's no longer in tht co. So shd do i feel happy? Maybe jus no feel. haha.. u can say me cold blooded. Sometimes its doesnt pay 2 be nice. (hao xin mei hao bao) but still tht time i was feelin v sad, like jus lose a v gd fren. But now, even if i see him, i may not know wat to say, or maybe i wont feel like tokin to him. so jus let it be.. i also dun wanna care so much.
ya.. maybe life is jus like tht. Ppl dun appreciate when u're treatin them nice. But do i? haha.. only know how to say ppl..maybe shd do some reflections on myself. haa. Jus cherish every little things tht u hav n everyone ard u. Especially ur love ones. n now.. who's e one gonna cherish me?? lol..i shall wait n see..haa. As if i'm v gd tht ppl will come cherish me..haha. Maybe one day e one who is meant for me will drop down fr e sky. haa. rubbish! I don need a perfect guy, anyway these isnt gg 2 be, as no one is perfect. haa. As long as to me is perfect can le.. haa. If i hav a bf, I'm one who loves to be dote, care n love by him den sometimes can hav small arguement, little fights with him.. haa. so nice! I think i'm probably day-dreaming..hahaha. Wait til there's such a day den say ba.. haa.
Actually, i thk in my heart i do still feel scare to be hurt.. But when in a relaionship i guess more or less there will be a little. So jus like it be ba..haa. so ppl treasure ur love ones..=)
gd nite..(".)
wished apon a star @ 5/24/2007 10:47:00 pm
April 2007